Tuesday, February 10, 2015

Ironing out the Wrinkles

“At times it seems to me that I am living my life backwards, and that at the approach of old age my real youth will begin. My soul was born covered with wrinkles—wrinkles my ancestors and parents most assiduously put there and that I had the greatest trouble removing.”

An Unprejudiced Mind….AndrĂ© Paul Gide (22 November 1869 – 19 February 1951) was a French author and winner of the Nobel Prize in literature in 1947.
I am so drawn to this man’s wisdom.

As I read this quote I immediately visualized the wrinkles on my soul and felt the presence of my Ancestors at work. I feel so at peace as I realize how many wrinkles I have ironed out. But yet there are so many layers left. Ironing out the wrinkles today is work and I realize just how diligent I have to be in smoothing out the deeper layers connected to the past, the Ancestors and make peace with them on a conscious level. I am in a conundrum as to what purpose aging serves at times. I have never panicked about aging as I had decided many years ago (I believe that it was after reading the book series of “The Life and Teachings of the Masters of the Far East, by Baird T. Spalding) that aging was senseless, at least the thought of aging anyway. It works almost like the thought of being ugly, stupid, dumb, fat, and all those others beliefs we choose to choke on that feed those never-ending wrinkles.

I believe that I inherited so much more through those wrinkles to make it worth the work it takes in smoothing them out. My heightened intuition being one of my most treasured gifts to evolve from my struggle in releasing the wrinkles my parents shared and left me with. The end result of letting go of that was the manifestation of Graves Dysease which landed me in the hospital with Congestive heart failure. At one point in the hospital I left my body and went on a journey which I believe I kept one foot in for a few years as I healed and completely reversed my condition (my specialist insisted many times that this had never been done before). As I indulge in my other creative ventures such as painting, knitting, writing, singing, and so on I also recognize the communication from the different Ancestors that accompanies each of these artistic outlets. With great gratitude I continue to move forwards, always with their blessings and I release, let go, and learn from those wrinkles.

Sunday, February 8, 2015

How comfortable are you

Greetings all and the best to you for the New Year. I have been absent since June of last year, I felt I had to reevaluate the time I was spending on the web. I am back with a new attitude and a new sense of well being.

One doesn't discover new lands without consenting to lose sight, for a very long time, of the shore.
AndrĂ© Paul Gide (22 November 1869 – 19 February 1951) was a French author and winner of the Nobel Prize in literature in 1947

This quote expresses just where I am at and how I have been feeling for the past few months. I am consciously moving out of my comfort zone; and this opens me up to a new life, a new way of being. I recognize just how hard I have been working to create a safety net around myself just to be comfortable. The more I move out of my comfort zone, the more at peace, at home I feel within myself. I am recognizing that by worrying about how things will turn out is most often worst than the actual outcome. So I choose to move away from the shore with only the greatest of expectations and therefore I am discovering the new life that begins at the end of my comfort zones. I am becoming a pioneer in my life as I venture into those unknown areas that I used to hold in fear of entering, of living to the fullest. There is a feeling of excitement in living that I never experienced before. I also feel that I am now able to do what is best for me rather than doing what I feel that I should do because it is the right thing to do. I truly understand the concept of living life through my passions and by adding gratitude to the formula, I am provided with all the comfort I require plus more.